I would usually consider myself a fairly confident person. Yes, I have a few insecurities, but I over the years I have come to know who God has made me to be. I believe He has given me gifts/talents that I am to use for Him, and although I am continually refining those gifts, I am pretty confident in the fact that He does not give bad gifts.
But…. I have almost no confidence in this area: song writing.
Whenever I write something it goes through the “Becca filter” of “would I listen to this on the radio or would I change the station?” “Would I like this song if I heard it in church?” And the answer is usually… no.
This is a hard one for me. I am learning, however, that most song writers rarely do it all, start to finish, by themselves.
This is why I have Eddie Culin. He is nice enough to let me sheepishly bring him my scraps and amazingly turns it into something that will actually get stuck in my head. (In a good way).
I don’t, and at this point- can’t do this on my own. I am definately being stretched.
Lord, give me confidence to keep moving.