Um, I might have cried

5 Jun

Bawled, actually. In the middle of my living room. By myself.

So today Pastor Matt talked about love giving generously. I caught the last part of the sermon on livestream (often when I lead worship in the evening, I try to catch part of the semon in the am to see which direction the speaker may be going so I can plan accordingly).

Here’s when I cried: when Matt talked about the church staff struggling because we are simply under staffed and under budget for the size of our church.  I didn’t think I would cry, but I did because I see it and to hear Matt actually say it made it real. I see the stress on my husband. I see him come home with knots in his stomach because he has just worked a 10 hour day and still has so much to do and doesn’t know how he can get it all done. 

I have a lot to do at work too, but this is different.  Ministry stress is just different.

This post is personal. This is coming from the wife of a pastor. This is coming from one who volunteers much of my own time to the church. This is coming from one who sees the inside workings of church.

Its hard. Its worth it, but its hard sometimes.

My prayer today is that our church sees a need and fills it. My prayer is that 4,000 people who attend Sandals would love Christ’s bride by giving generously; not because a pastor asked them to, not because I write about my thoughts and put it on the internet, but because the Christ asked for it.

2 Responses to “Um, I might have cried”

  1. Jim (Dad) June 6, 2011 at 6:13 p06 #

    Matthew 7:14 For the gate is narrow and the way is hard that leads to life, and those who find it are few.
    Act 20:33-35 I coveted no one’s silver or gold or apparel. You yourselves know that these hands ministered to my necessities and to those who were with me. In all things I have shown you that by working hard in this way we must help the weak and remember the words of the Lord Jesus, how he himself said, ‘It is more blessed to give than to receive.'”
    2Co 4:1 Therefore, having this ministry by the mercy of God, we do not lose heart.
    2Co 4:16,17 So we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day.
    For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison

  2. Tricia Boganwright June 6, 2011 at 6:13 p06 #

    Thank you for sharing your heart–and for sharing Andrew as he allows God to use him for Kingdom puposes. And thank YOU for standing by his side, praying for him, loving and encouraging him, and working alongside him to love the bride of Christ. I love you both so much–and pray………..

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