I’ve heard of it, but never seen it…

…until last Friday

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

We actually could not get into Disneyland.  Not the parking lot was full.  The whole park!! 

Thats a lot of people.  I was just fine driving away from the Happiest Place on Earth.

So Bummed

I went for another run today. 

My new, amazing, fairly expensive shoes are giving me a blister.  Originally I thought it was from when we went dancing but it came back after my run.

It is really amazing that something so small can almost keep you from exercising.

I think I have run on them too much to take them back.  What do I do?

Inadequate

Let me just say that there are many times that I feel inadequate, particularly in the music arena.  I know I can sing, but there is still so much I don’t know.  There is so much about singing I can improve on;  so much about music I wish I knew but don’t. 

I am surrounded with unbelievable musicians and sometimes it just makes me feel inadequate.

In some regards, the inadequacy feeling is good.  It pushes me to learn more.

My role as a worship leader at Sandals is different than those at other churches.  At most churches the worship leader chooses the set list, arranges the songs, and is in charge of the musicians.  Although I sometimes have input in the songs we sing, I don’t do any of those things on a regular basis.  In a way its kind of nice.  I can focus my attention toward the congreation and concentrate on how God wants me to lead.   

Downfalls:  There are just some limitations on leading when I can’t necessarily lead the band as well.

But I am being pushed to grow in my musicianship which I appreciate.  Tonight I am leading one of the songs for band practice.  I mean, I am running the rehearsal for this particular song.  I am excited to have been given the chance to do this but also a little nervous. 

Good nervous.

I Have Decided

I have decided that during this waiting time when Andrew and I are hoping for kids, I am going to enjoy life without them.

Let me explain.  I can’t change our circumstances.  Only God can.  So focusing on what is not will only frustrate me more.   God revealed something to me a long time ago that gave me (and continues to give me) so much peace.  I cannot tell the future. I cannot change what I cannot control.   God did not give us humans that ability.  And trying to do either one of those will simply offer chaos, frustration, and confusion.  My God is not the author of these things.

I decided that I cannot keep going through the grief stages every month.  I have chosen peace.

What does that mean for me right now?  I have decided to enjoy life now.

I will enjoy being able to take a nap whenever my schedule permits.  I will enjoy being able to have coffee, lunch meat, and soft cheeses and not feel guilty about it.  I will enjoy having date night and going to the movies spontaneously.  I will enjoy thinking of my students as my “kids” and my ministry.  I will enjoy being able to go to band practice early and stay late, to go to the studio on a whim to help a friend record his album, to be able to stay a few more minutes at work to get something done, to give all of myself as a worship leader for 4 services on Sundays without running back and forth to flip flops.  I will enjoy time with my husband!

Do I still want children?  Absolutely!  We will keep trying.  I think I am even at the point of calling a doctor.  But during this time, I have chosen to consider what I have a blessing.

“Babe, put the camera down. I have to pee”

While Andrew could not get up from the hospital bed, I was in charge of helping him pee. 

Before I could do that, however, you know I had to take a picture. 

I was a little afraid it was going to overflow. 

(BTW….whats wrong with my neck?) 

 

This is where he was for 5 hours. 

Andrew did awesome today.  He is feeling really good.

 

 

 

These are his stem cells on their way to possibly save someon’es life. 

We are really excited.

Thanks for all your prayers.

Everybody cut Footloose

These words kept me going on Saturday.  I ran 10 miles all by myself! It took me almost 2 hours. 

Don’t worry, I have surely made up the calories I lost since then.  Eating on the county (Donor company paid for our food) meant we ate pretty good. =)

Amazing Man – needs prayer

One of the many things I love about my husband is his love for other people.  His love for people does not stop at ‘talking about loving people.  He actually serves, sacrifices, and gives to others. 

This next step simply confirms how amazing he is.

A few months ago Andrew got a phone call that he was a bone marrow match for a woman who has leukemia (very rare if there is no relation).  He has already gone through many tests to confirm his match and the day is approaching.  Today Andrew starts taking his shots to “beef up” his stem cells and protein in his body.  This can be painful and draining.  He has to take the shots for 4 days prior to donating.

This Monday is the day.  We are going to be at a hospital where he will be hooked up to a machine for about 8 hours.  They will take his blood and basically syphon out the stuff they need, then put the remaining blood back in (kind of like dialysis). 

Please pray for him as his body prepares to donate.  Pray that all goes well.  Pray that he stays healthy before Monday (if he gets sick he can’t do it).  Pray that the procedure works for this woman.  Pray for quick recovery.  (I know my husband and he hates to be out of commission).

Will keep you updated.  Thanks so much!

“I love you more than blogging”

This is what I said to my husband last night when he came home and commented that many times when he wants to talk to me I have my computer in my lap.

So I put it down. 

I still had to post, just when he wasn’t around. =)

Something I never thought I’d see

 

My husband taking country line dancing lessons. 

It was not his favorite but he was a great sport cause he knew I would like it

 

Friday night our friends Abe and Roe Hernandez invited us to go with them to Stampede, a line dancing club in Temecula.

 

I almost rode the mechanical bull but decided against it.  Maybe next time.

I did think it was funny that I had to watch the 60 year old women to see what to do.

The blister on my foot from my boots was totally worth it.  Tons-o- fun.

Seven

 

I ran 7 miles today.  It feels like nothing compared to Robin’s 12 but it is more than triple what I have been doing at the gym.

Pretty wiped but feeling proud of myself.

(By the way, Andrew was laughing at me calling me a nerd because I was taking a picture of myself ‘trying to look tired.’  I am a nerd)